I hate love

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Osho - A great mind and a pure soul

"I have been misunderstood perhaps more than anyone else ever, but it has not affected me, for the simple reason that there is no desire to be understood. It is their problem if they don't understand, it is not my problem. If they misunderstand, it is their problem and their misery. I am not going to waste my sleep because millions of people are misunderstanding me." ~ Osho


I have been writing a lot of osho's thoughts and words as my status message , and everyone around likes them lot ,until...until i put the authors name under it .I mean come on guys for thoughts that you complemented, for the ones that you praised you suddenly start despising those coz they came from osho . A thought is just a thought , it should never make a difference in your liking it whoever it comes from.

As soon as we hear the word osho we jump to a conclusion that he is a sex guru and whatever he says is a sin ,even without knowing a single word about his life.
But as osho says it is useless to make people understand your point and it should not be our problem . So i will leave it at that, with just a salute (prayer ) for this pure soul.

Live transcription of talk between two good friends. Love at first sight.

Ok here i post live transcription of two good friends talking about "love at first sight ". Names have been changed for anonymity but intelligent people can guess which one is guru and which one is prani. Remember this is an uncencored version and i am not resposible for any hard feelings.

I know , ye blog ki theme se hatkar hai , but what the heck its my blog.

"Love at first sight"


Prani: idle .....kaam dhaam nahi hai kya
guru: abey machine reboot kiya tha...and usse pehle TT khel raha tha.......
guru: usse pehle lunch.........usse pehle ICICI ke agent se baat kar raha tha..........
guru: kaam abhi start kar raha hoon
Prani: badey busy they sir....kya baat hai
guru:
guru: kya karen paisa aa jaata hai to tension ho jaati hai.........
guru: tension hai to sehat ka special care karna padta hai
Prani: aur sir ......bataao sir....tension kay siwa aur kya chal raha hai???
guru: kaam....masti (w/o females)...
Prani: masti bole to females ke saath
guru: wohi bola na...masti without females
guru: bindaas rehne ka....khaane ka....aur jam ke peene ka
Prani: saaala sab ki life ka ek hi story hai
Prani: aur suttey ka kya hua???
Prani: baatoan se to lag raha hai ...bewaday ban chukey ho
guru:
guru: bewda to nahi.....but haan....mahine mein ek baar to party ho hi jaati hai........
guru: sutte bhi har weekly choddta rehta hoon
Prani: hey ....itna is very reasonable.ab jawaani main bhi nahi piyegay to kab piyegay
Prani: good 2 hear ...ki chod to detey ho.
guru: hhhhhmm....sahi bola.....
guru: to teri jawani aayi ya nahi abhi tak
Prani: aray sir........kay bataaoon....sala phir wahi ladki ke chakkar main ...life 1ce more barbaad hoti dikh rahi hai
guru: abey...kya bol raha hai.........
guru: ab kon.....
guru: wo hi side waali kya
guru: jiska pune mein fanta hai...
Prani: d end result is gonna be ga** pe laat .....par dil hai ki manta nahi
Prani: kaun si side waali aa gayi
Prani: no no.....sir ek time mein ek
Prani: haan haan wahi waali......
Prani: good boss u rember haann....
Prani: *remember
guru: arey kaisi baat kar raha hai....yaad kyon nahi rakhoonga..
guru: well.......kya problem hai teri......
guru: tere ko apun ne pehle hi bola tha....ki uska fanta hai to mat picchu pad...........
Prani: aray ............yeh baat apun ke control main nahi hai bedu
guru: hhhmmmm i can understand....
guru: to kya bolti hai wo
Prani: bola na.....saala dil ka kya karooon
Prani: yeah ......afterall u hav also gone thru d same stage sometime...
guru: ya.......but ullu....I leared from those experiences........
guru: saale doosron ko dekh kar nahi seekh sakta na..........????
guru: chal ab to chidiya khet chug gayi hai............
guru: abhi ye bol...konsi stage hai?
Prani: but u were better as u had said her....
Prani: aray usko abhi tak bola hi to nahi hai
Prani: i knw but i havnt learnt frm d 1 jhatka i recieved in d collg....
Prani: haaan .............i know tht
guru: to kiske liye wait kar raha hai......
guru: sharmana chodd daal, hal dil ka khol daal, aaju baaju mat dekh...I love u bol daal..
Prani: stage bole to???
Prani: nahi to pachta-oonga kawaraa rah jaa-oonga....
guru: hannn
guru: stage bole to tune kya kiya abhi tak,,,,,,,,,,,,
Prani: good frnds abhi tak .....nothing more thn tht....
Prani: infact kal to ghar bhi aaaye thee .......but ofcourse with her frns (boys+gulz)
guru: ghar aayi thi to kya ho gaya.....
guru: dekh dost..........
guru: I'll tell you the cruel truth........
guru: and remember these are facts...learned from experiences..not just by me...but general public.......
guru: in case of love.....you could do whatever u can.....finally the decision is in the hand of other person.......
guru: If u make other person ur boss....ur in trouble......
guru: If u want to be happy.......never let urself get down to a level from where u can't recover......
guru: abey saale............tu chahe 5 din wait kar ya 5 saal......agar bandi ko tere ko pasand karna hai to 5 minutes kaafi hai.....
Prani: kuch nahi hua baba....i m telling u d stage
Prani: no no ........
Prani: ok bolo
Prani: chodd doonga usay........pata hai kuch nahi hone waaala
Prani: tht is true........i knw tht i shud not let my life be controlled by d some girl
Prani: baat to 100 taka sahi bola...sir.
guru: see.....let me tell u one more fact...
guru: when u saw that girl..it took only 5 sec for u to like that girl ...right......?
guru: similarly.........if she is not that too much mature (which comes after going through many affairs and after age of 26)....
guru: then she would have liked u in the first sight only........liking u means she must had a thought for a sec..........
Prani: btw kaafi sahi advice de rahe ho....
Prani: collg main to aisay nahi they
Prani: ok bataoo
Prani: hmmm.....yep.
guru: now since she is a girl she can't approach u........
guru: "5 seconds of first sight"........
guru: so if u both had that thought....she is waiting for u.....
guru: go get her.......
guru: and if she didn't had that thought....then...bad luck boy...welll theres still a chance...but then that depends how mature she is......
guru: and I can surely say that she is not that mature.......
guru: at this age.........
guru: I have confused a lot........so let me conclude....
guru: u dont know whether she had that "5 sec of first sight thought" about u........
guru: but u had........
guru: if u keep this thought in ur mind....u know that it is troubling u........
guru: u will keep thinking wether she likes u or not.......
guru: the 5 secs will grow to 5 months...years..
guru: so better u solve the problem at the stage of 5 days only....
guru: just go and ask her.........
guru: the best way to get out of any problems is SPEAK IT OUT
guru: just go and talk to her
guru: and when u ask....dont keep any feelings with u.......
guru: and dont let any doubts about her feelings in ur mind........
guru: speak out everything and ask everything...
guru: ok..
Prani:
Prani: thought for a second wat??? tht i even i m good.
Prani: yeh bheee sahi bola beeedu
Prani: to conclusion is tht i shud go nd speak my heart out
Prani: ya ya ...she is waiting for me ....wow.....
Prani: mazey le rahey ho
Prani: i know thn that wud be her bad luck.
Prani: hmmm....bhhaai saab ....impressive .
Prani: kaafi badal gaye ho sir...............
Prani: yep .....its gone into my head now
guru: hhhhhmmmm...cool.......
Prani: gotto gather some courage now
guru: haan college se nikalne ke baad kafi change aaya hai thinking mein
guru: atleast about girls....and love
guru: abey courage for what.......???
guru: maregi thodi hi tere ko.....
guru: u know why r u thinking of gathering courage..........
guru: because u r afraid.......afraid of losing ur self-respect........
guru: this is the major problem with most of the guys man.....including me....
guru: abey usne mana kiya to kya.....
guru: she is losing something....
guru: not u........
guru: if she doesn't care to explain the reasons to saying NO to you....then she is not worth u..
Prani: nd tht change is due 2 ......
Prani: no i m not afraid of loosing my self respect ....i m afraid of losing her frndship
guru: #$^%#@$%^ friendship ki.......
guru: why r u running from truth.....
guru: is she just ur friend??
guru: will u be able to treat her the same way if u come to know that she can't be urs....?
guru: didn't u liked her from the first day u saw her?????
guru: this is not friendship man.......this is only love........
guru: I wanted to add "hawas" also.... but jaane de....
Prani: hmmm......tht is also true.
Prani: yeh bhee sahi bola bedu....
Prani: guru ....ho gaye ho aaap to
guru: hhhmmm....jeeto raho watas.....
guru: (serious mode)..........life mein load nahi lene ka.......
guru: sabki pasand ek jaisi nahi hoti.....
guru: chances hai ki usko tu pasand nahi aaya hoga....to uski bhi koi galti nahi hai na..........
guru: ab pasand nahi to pasand nahi....right...
guru: to jab wo tension nahi le rahi...tu kyon tension le raha hai........
guru: to usko jaake bol......mere ko tu pasand hai.....tere ko mein pasand hoon kya......
guru: agar haan to theek nahi....nahi to mein apna time tere pe kharaab nahi karna chahta......
guru: haan tu chahti hai ki tere ko time chahiye...to mere ko time duration bol....kab wapis poochne ka hai last time.....
guru: aur agar tu chahe to mein kuch bhi kar sakta hoon tere liye.......
Prani: haan .............main jism ka bhooka aur hawas ka pyaasa ho gaya hoon.....
Prani: aagey bolo
Prani: i m listening...2 my guru
guru: bat apna time aur dimaag kharab nahi karoonga.........abhi bol tere ko kuch bolna hai to......
guru: bas itna bolne ka......and WITH FULL CONFIDENCE...............
guru: to sab ek dum CONFIDENCE mein bolne ka.............but with respect.............
guru: abhi respect bole to neeche nahi jhukne ka........lekin uska bhi ek auraat jaat jism samajh ke baat nahi karne ka......
Prani: aray baap...main munna bhai nahi hoon....
Prani: pata lag raha hai ...u r staying in MUMBAI
guru: dono ko equal level pe rakhne ka...
guru: haan.....abhe itne confidence mein preparation karega to uske samne jaake 20% to bahar hi niklega na.....
guru: maloom hai mere ko....uske samne jaate hi teri phat ke haath mein aa jayegi..........
guru: sab ki aa jaati hai,....
Prani: sir ......i m getting curious wat has changed u so much....
Prani: kya transition aa gaya hai....tell me boss
Prani: ok ok.....baaap bole to pahley ek maheenay tak ......ammo tayar karna ka hai...taki ek goli to nikley ge
guru: get enough CONFIDENCE.......not courage.....
guru: because amount of "courage" required is relative to the other person.....
guru: whereas amount of "CONFIDENCE" required is always contant...

shadows follow me...

Shadows follow me
patterns on the walls
haunt me
flickering images
from time lost
and gone
pain from those
innocent years
that I carry still
inside me
still sting the eyes…
and choke my throat

insecurities
I have been denying
since years
today I wanna
accept
today I wanna
conquer…

its only when we realize
we have been weak
that we become strong

the wounds
I never tried to heal
never acknowledged…

today I wanna
heal
this soul of mine
that’s bruised
to the core.

AB

There is a looser in everyone

The Loser

by Chuck Pool

They say that I’m a loser And perhaps that may be true Since I don’t have a lot of friends And my interests are but few I’m not a worldly person Well versed in social graces So I prefer to stay at home Than go to public places I don’t go out to parties Or places where you dance And I haven’t had a date in years Afraid to take a chance People always make me nervous Because I’m rather shy Lacking in the confidence To be a stand up guy I’m not a very clever man Nor can I tell a joke I’m neither tall or handsome And I always am flat broke I have no sense of humor Or talent to create Is it any wonder then That I don’t have a mate In spite of all that I am not I never get depressed For I’ve accepted who I am Being second best They say that I’m a loser And perhaps that may be true But if I had to change my life I’d wind up being you There is a looser in everyone , but one can win if he can stand up to that looser and face him in its eye, i really like the utter honesty of the poet, had i had written a poem for the looser in me it would have had the same expression.

I'm a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work the more I have of it.

LUCK
He worked by day
And toiled by night.
He gave up play
And some delight.
Dry books he read,
New things to learn.
And forged ahead,
Success to earn.
He plodded on
with Faith and pluck;
And when he won,
Men called it luck. ­­
Anonymous

Positive anything is better than negative nothing...

POSITIVE V. NEGATIVE:

The transformation from negative to positive

Has completely changed my life.

How relaxation and a few daily excercises

Have ended years of tears and strife.

The secret is to think of the good times,

And to think of them each day.

The rewards are so benificial

That one looks forward to each new day.

Days that are filled with hope,

With calm and peaceful feelings within.

I look back to my negative days and think,

What a wasted life what a sin?

When one has a positive outlook,

One is motivated in every way.

Your aim is to reach your goal in life,

"Follow your dream" is what I say.

I've read some very informative books,

Which made some compelling reading.

It made me stop dead in my tracks,

A kickstart was what my brain was needing.

The books helps one to slim,

And when your confidence takes a nose dive,

How very, very glad I'm positive,

And feel so extremely alive.

There isn't a negative thought in my mind,

I'm like a flower that's in bud.

The only negative thing about me

Is my Rhesus Negative Blood.

I've emerged from the dark tunnel,

The tunnel without a glimmer of light.

And with hand on my heart I can honestly say,

"All is well. I am doing alright."

Dancing in the rain

I danced in the rain
though I knew I’d get wet
and it would take eons for my clothes to dry--
I danced anyway.

I danced
as the clouds erupted
into waterfalls of fury,
like melted glaciers in the sky,
or wicked witches of Oz.

I danced because I could,
because I would.

I danced to defy nature’s wrath
to create rain worthy of gods.

I danced because I felt like dancing,
because moping would do me no good.

I danced to celebrate the rain,
to cleanse myself with it
like Bathsheba in David’s yard.

I danced to expunge myself – to become one with the rain,
like a fairy in a flower just blooming.

I danced to dance,
because my soul danced.

I danced
because soon enough,
the rain began to dance--
it started with one drop and then another,
I heard reggae.

I caught my reflection in a puddle,
just dancing,
dancing.

I caught the rain in a puddle,
just dancing,
dancing.

I danced--
just me and the rain.

The unstoppable

♫ “The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me.”

Life is only a third of chance
and three fourths of what you make it.
Every day a simple decision can hurt or help you.
The trick to it it knowing what each decision will bring.
No one is perfect and should never be considered that way.
Who you are is only a tenth of what you say.
Ninety percent is what you do.
The world we live in is filled with hate.
The crazy thing is that God never intended it to be in this state.
Taking your life's road and following it is so much easier said than done.
You have to look at where you been to know where you're going.
Finding a purpose and fulfilling it.
Who you are isn't who you're with or where you're at.
It's deep inside you, constant sometimes with defect.
Just knowing that growing comes with pain.
nothing ventured is nothing gained.
Accepting this is my decision.
Adapting to this is my mission.
My words are here so my actions must follow.
Sick of being in a world that leaves me hollow.
Starting everyone out with a clean slate.
Making no one else pay for another's mistake.
Free to live life with no regrets,
Hopefully my words you read will have an effect.
Life's principals are something you can't forget.

The secret of creatives

To be creative means to be in love with life. You can be creative only if you love life enough that you want to enhance its beauty, you want to bring a little more music to it, a little more poetry to it, a little more dance to it.